The Atomic Blonde
Actress, Singer, Pinup Girl, Celebrity look-alike, Reenactor

It’s time…

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On New Year’s Eve 2010, my inner voice said, “This is the year you fall in love”. She was right. Unfortunately, it was with someone who didn’t love me back.

This year I waited with dread, but didn’t hear the voice. Until today. Guess it’s better late than never, huh?

She says, “This is the year you remove all obstacles and finally live the life you were born to live. It’s time.”

I hope she’s right. Albert Einstein once said, “Only a life lived in the service to others is worth living.” While I think there is some merit to this, I’ve realized that I’ve been living my life solely for others, and it’s been at the expense of my life and opportunities I could have had.

Don’t get me wrong – I am very proud of things I have accomplished. I started a theatre, The Twilight Theatre, in 2005. At a time when most theatres are not doing well and quite a few are going out of business altogether, my mother Jeanne (the Managing Director) and I (the Artistic Director) have been successfully running our theatre in the black for 7 years now. It didn’t wind up going the way I wanted it to. I was just supposed to be the President of the theatre and in charge of public relations and fundraising, but wound up running the theatre. I also never wanted to direct, and wound up directing 4-5 shows a year. However, after the rather… disheartening… experience I had when I was in theatre in high school, it has been a privilege to give others the opportunities and support I never was given. That’s a whole other blog post to come on bullying, which unfortunately I experienced my whole life from students and teachers.

Last year, I took a step back from the theatre. I am still running it, but have learned to say “no”. If I can’t find a good director for a show, I don’t step in and direct it any more – we just don’t do it. This has allowed me to pursue what I really love – performing and reenacting. As most of you probably know, I’m a singer, actress, pinup model, and celebrity reenactor. I do mostly Betty Grable and Marilyn Monroe, but have done (and will be doing!) more. I’ve been reenacting since 2008, and I love it. It makes me happy.

Last year I was still transitioning from directing and didn’t get to go to as many events as I was asked to go to, but when I look back at it, 2011 was quite a year. I had some great pinup shoots with Dixie Pinup, Grant Beecher, Mark Turner, Pam Ellis, and PinupGirl Cosmetics. Kellyn Willey at PinupGirl Cosmetics rocks my world – I can’t wait to do more projects (*Cough… Bridal show… *Cough) with you, Kellyn! I also joined an amazing group of ladies, Pinups for Soldiers, who raise money to send care packages to the armed forces overseas. There is no nobler cause, and I am incredibly honored to be their newest member.

I portrayed Betty Grable at Reading’s WWII Weekend (my second year there), the Battleship New Jersey VJ Day event, the Greenwood Lake Air Show, Secret City, Tullahoma, Fayette County’s Veteran’s Day celebration, Pearl Harbor Remembrance Day, Hometown Holidays at the Frederick Brown Jr Amphitheater, and my home show, WWII Days in Peachtree City. I’ve been fortunate to be involved with WWII Days for many years now and was recently made an honorary member of the Dixie Wing’s Angel Squad. What a great group of people! Last year I wrote and produced a USO show for them – I researched everything and used actual quotes from Bob Hope and the other performers. I also provided a ton of celebrities again. Hopefully, this year we will add a radio show and a fashion show. Thank you to everyone who invited me to be a part of your event in 2011. I hope to see you all again in 2012!

Last year was also a big year for performing. It sure was nice to be out of the light booth and back on stage again. I was in “Broadway by Candlelight”, “The Wizard of Oz” (Glinda), “Footloose” (Vi Moore), and “Rabbit Hole” (Becca). I was also given the opportunity to portray the Marquise in a scene from “Les Liaisons Dangereuses” at NCTC’s gala, so that’s two “bucket list” roles I got to play this year. I’m auditioning to play the Marquise in “Les Liaisons Dangereuses” this year, and it would mean the world to me. Please keep your fingers crossed!

I have big plans for 2012. This is the year I pull out all the stops, and boy have I got some plans. Watch for me performing more, producing more USO shows, reenacting more, singing more, and planning some weddings and special events. 2011 was just a preview of good things to come. I will continue to run the theatre and teach private voice lessons, but it’s time for me to step out there and grab what I want. I’m lucky enough to have it in my grasp. Now I just have to have the guts to follow thru, and when I do, I will be the happiest doll in the world!

Do I want to fall in love? Yes. I hope I do – this time with someone who will realize what a gem he has and love me back. In the meantime, though, I’m going after my dreams! Up next – Friday, I have a photo shoot with the lovely Cherry Dame (who makes me feel like the most beautiful woman in the world) and Paperdoll Photography. It’s the first time I’ve worked with Paperdoll, but I love their work and hear wonderful things. Then, in a couple of weeks, I’m off to Fort Indiantown Gap’s Battle of the Bulge reenactment. This time I will be going over to the “dark side” and will be doing my first German impression. She’s an Austrian countess named Elsa Mannesser and, like me in real life, is a descendant of Henry the Fowler. :-)

So, I’m off! I just wish I had had the confidence, guts, and support to do this years ago. I hope you’ll all share my journey with me. I’m fortunate to have the most incredible support system, and I love you all. I’ve been through some incredibly dark and desperate times, and you saw me thru it. Now it’s time for the incredibly happy times.

I’ll leave you with this poem by Dylan Thomas that seems to keep reappearing in my life lately. A great big “thank you” to the great lady and teacher who introduced me to this poem, Mrs. Cleo Hudson.

DO NOT GO GENTLE INTO
THAT GOOD NIGHT

Do not go gentle into that good night,
Old age should burn and rage at close of day;
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

Though wise men at their end know dark is right,
Because their words had forked no lightning they
Do not go gentle into that good night.

Good men, the last wave by, crying how bright
Their frail deeds might have danced in a green bay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

Wild men who caught and sang the sun in flight,
And learn, too late, they grieved it on its way,
Do not go gentle into that good night.

Grave men, near death, who see with blinding sight
Blind eyes could blaze like meteors and be gay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

And you, my father, there on the sad height,
Curse, bless me now with your fierce tears, I pray.
Do not go gentle into that good night.
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

Happy 2012, everyone! I hope you all have as amazing a year as I’m going to have, and PLEASE don’t take as long as I did to reach out and grab your dreams.

Follow me on Facebook and tell me what you’re doing in 2012 to grab your dreams.

XOXOXO

Alison

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